Alzheimer’s – What It Means to Me...
What it means to me is sadness… Sadness because it took my mother long before I was ready to let her go. Sadness because she still had so much life to live. Sadness because she was stolen from me when I needed her most. Sadness because it robbed my girls of their Grandma. Sadness because she and my Dad were supposed to be enjoying their senior years together. Sadness because it took her too soon.
But it also means love – unconditional love. Because without unconditional love we never would have survived this disease. It has stripped her of every beautiful memory she has ever had and the only way to cope with that is to love unconditionally. Love life, love your spouse, love your children, love your friends, and love unconditionally.
It has been a long nine years filled with many happy moments. We’ve done our best to live in the here and now…in the little moments of life. My daughters were born and she held them in their very first hours on earth. We celebrated birthdays and anniversaries. We’ve been silly and crazy and laughed until we peed our pants. We have made memories in spite of this disease.
And there have been devastating times. Each and every time she slipped further and further away from us. I do believe that even today she knows we are here by her side holding her hand and giving her that unconditional love.
One last wish…I wish I could hear her talk to me one more time, hear her sing a lullaby to my children, hear her say I love you. And I know my wish will come true when we meet again. I love you Mom, always.